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In Praise of Future Spontaneity.

An old friend from my drug using days in New Zealand, died recently. I hadn’t seen him for many years and aside from sadness at his death I also felt an internal disquiet, as he was yet another of my … Continue reading

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Beauty School Rehab

I staggered off a plane in Hong Kong when I was twenty five years old, clutching the empty litre bottle of opium tincture (90% alcohol/10% opium) that I had needed to get me through the 20 hour journey. Admittedly I’d … Continue reading

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Shining Solo

I had my first boyfriend, in the most flexible use of the term, in my early teens. He was large, homely, sub normal intellectually and a member of the ‘Satan’s Slaves’ motorcycle gang. We had nothing in common and he … Continue reading

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A Woman of Substance.

I spent a month in a detox unit in Dartford, followed by seven months in a women’s only treatment centre in Kent. I was then transferred to a secondary treatment centre, again only for women, in Bristol. The focus in … Continue reading

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Luminosity at Night

I went to bed early last night for a marathon sleep catch up session. It was an exhausting night. Resting was interspersed with periods of overactive obsessive thinking, examination of past patterns of behaviour, wonderings and occasional inspirations. I started … Continue reading

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Thinking About Doing and Other Forms of Clock Watching.

I leave for New York in a month and somehow need to raise £1000 before my departure.This doesn’t actually bother me as much as the fact that it’s a position I’ve found myself in many, many times before. I solve this … Continue reading

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FILTHY LUCRE

An old acquaintance from my drug using days, recently reconnected with me after twenty or so years. We’ve swapped the occasional mail and caught up on news. As always I’ve been more surprised at those who survived than those who … Continue reading

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