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In Praise of Future Spontaneity.

An old friend from my drug using days in New Zealand, died recently. I hadn’t seen him for many years and aside from sadness at his death I also felt an internal disquiet, as he was yet another of my … Continue reading

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Love Never Dies, It Just Changes Shape.

We are born, we live and we die. In between there lies love and pain and joy, but also events that are portals: points of initiation that transform us. As anyone who reads this blog may have noticed, I’ve been … Continue reading

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Life is Not a Spectator Sport

I’ve worked in retail, in the same place, for over twenty years. This longevity in a place of work is now an unusual thing and over time I’ve built up a relationship of sorts, with many of the customers. It’s telling of … Continue reading

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Eggs, Exercise,Pornography and Loss

I was living in a dry house when I first met Mike, who lived downstairs from me. The building we lived in had eight bedrooms, each with an individual lock and electric meter, and a shared kitchen and bathroom. The … Continue reading

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Ghosts

The house I lived in for 18 years had only one previous owner, a woman who settled there post war when the flats had been new built for those returning from the fighting. She never married or had children, and … Continue reading

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Mother Love

Yesterday would have been my mother’s birthday, the fourth that has passed since she died. This year I acknowledged it, but didn’t cry, and that in itself made me incredibly sad. Time passes so quickly… My mother and I had … Continue reading

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