Tag Archives: depression

In Praise of Future Spontaneity.

An old friend from my drug using days in New Zealand, died recently. I hadn’t seen him for many years and aside from sadness at his death I also felt an internal disquiet, as he was yet another of my … Continue reading

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Pattern Making and Shape Shifting

At the beginning of this year I had six weeks off work and was able to immerse myself in the finishing of a writing project and my art. My creative regime tends to be skittish and hyperkinetic. An ideal day … Continue reading

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A Woman of Substance.

I spent a month in a detox unit in Dartford, followed by seven months in a women’s only treatment centre in Kent. I was then transferred to a secondary treatment centre, again only for women, in Bristol. The focus in … Continue reading

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Luminosity at Night

I went to bed early last night for a marathon sleep catch up session. It was an exhausting night. Resting was interspersed with periods of overactive obsessive thinking, examination of past patterns of behaviour, wonderings and occasional inspirations. I started … Continue reading

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Kitchen Sink Dramas and Microwave Meditations

  I’m sitting in a friend’s house in Hackney at three in the morning. The window that I’ve been hanging out of having a cigarette is open, and drifting though it is the sound of early morning traffic and a … Continue reading

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The Mind Monster

A few months ago I was at a conference where a psychologist was speaking about standardised treatment for mental and emotional trauma. The present norm in such cases is using a combination of medication and a basic therapy such as … Continue reading

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