Tag Archives: Relationships

Santa, His Sleigh and The Reindeer of the Apocalypse

The day after Boxing Day and I am in a cosy room at my sister’s house that smells more than vaguely sulphurous, sporting two impressive fat and sugar fuelled spots on my face and writing this whilst everyone is still … Continue reading

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Boxing Hares

I’m in standard Boxing Day recovery mode. Dishevelled, half dressed, filled with self-loathing and body hate tempered with relief that I survived the celebrations with relationships intact and no major burn outs or disasters occurring. Christmas started with Carrie Fisher’s … Continue reading

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On the Power of Dance

In order to recover from yet another self extraction from my pseudo relationship (standard only in its sickness and adherence to every rule of advanced co-dependancy), I decided to socialise. When I’m at home, I am normally a hermit. My … Continue reading

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Shining Solo

I had my first boyfriend, in the most flexible use of the term, in my early teens. He was large, homely, sub normal intellectually and a member of the ‘Satan’s Slaves’ motorcycle gang. We had nothing in common and he … Continue reading

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A Woman of Substance.

I spent a month in a detox unit in Dartford, followed by seven months in a women’s only treatment centre in Kent. I was then transferred to a secondary treatment centre, again only for women, in Bristol. The focus in … Continue reading

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Kitchen Sink Dramas and Microwave Meditations

  I’m sitting in a friend’s house in Hackney at three in the morning. The window that I’ve been hanging out of having a cigarette is open, and drifting though it is the sound of early morning traffic and a … Continue reading

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Art, Magic, The Muse and Me.

I’ve never been good at intimate relationships. I seemed to have not been gifted with an innate set of rules of engagement. The only wisdom I’ve garnered over the years, despite experience, therapy, self-help groups and books; was that I … Continue reading

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